not addicted

i dont think im addicted to weed.. am i ?
cause i wanna get high!
my brother and his friend ray asked me to smoke, i stop a minute and thought about it, then i said nah!
i wanted to smoke though, fuck. ;(

even if i break this promise its all me, not anyone's. im just proving my self till dec.1.
i dont know how will this go,cause lately i been wanting to get high asfuck!