everything's Good.

yes yes yes. well kind of. shit here and there. lets see, i been helping my sister pay the phone bills cause she doesnt have much money. plus she is paying for her apartment which her ex husband isnt living there no more so she is alone :(. anyways work is cool i like working! i made alot of friends ! older people. haha some Dj's and also some famous people come by! sometimes i get rude customer i give them attitude back cause fuck i cant take it if ur going to give me a hard time -___- .

well last night i got good news! shes coming back march19! yes! :)
i thought i was going to wait till may but yay spring break shes coming back.

when she tells me she miss me.

i feel like the happiest kid in the world.

its hard to control feelings.

i cant control how i feel towards someone. its not only that. you cant control how you feel at all. you cant just make your self happy just cause your saying your happy. it doesnt mean your truly happy inside? i dont know if you know what i mean. some people are really good at hiding how they feel. anyways i feel like i try to control my feelings for example not to like a person cause it wont ever happen? the situation with luisa. i learned. back when i was in highschool i didnt care if she was straight,i didnt believe the word. i just enjoy her company and like who she is. it doesnt mean i cant feel attracted to her? hm i dont know. in my world thats how i see it. i dont care if your straight gay bisexual or lesbian your fucking human. um. yeah. i just felt like writing something but sometimes it dont make sense i dont know how to say what im thinking. i think i feel more attracted to jorelle cause we been talking alot. i dont know is it a bad idea.im not doing anything bad or anything . im saying i just like talking to her, she makes me smile :). anyways she wanted me to send her something thru the mail and i tried writing a letter and my mind was BLANK its cause we talk everyday kinda. so i just sent her some stickers and stencils. well everthing is great. to be continue. <2.

Blown!

last night it was shy (charlene) house party at her apartment in northridge. i ended up going but  mckaven driving cause the mexican truck i was going to drive was a fail. haha mckaven and aldrich and i couldnt NOT fit in the truck hahahaha! i felt like i had 3 legs. aldrich legs could of gas for me hahaha. wierd. anyways it was nice seeing faces. good shit was smoking out! i was topline blown. like seriously. bowls on pipes. bowls on bongs. a blunt. an a bubbler. it was great. i was pretty much "mr.giggles." i was laughing so much and my imagination was going. hilarious! it was fun :). glad i went. gots to admit the fucking bong hits wassssss crazy. anyways got home safe and im glad everyone did as well.

update* fast and easy.

work:              i been working alot, i feel great about it cause its money! im saving! im doing good at it because im not spending as much! well i was at first but then im trying to manage my money now. hm anways ill see how long this goes. im glad im not sitting on my ass and not doing anything.

school.             i want to go back but i really dont know what school. i dont wanna go back to lacc. dont feel to happy there. i didnt even know anyone. few similar faces but you know what i mean? friends friends? eh. i need to go back though. i will though. its a promise.

weekeends:       i usually babysit saturdays and spend my time biking most of the weekends. biking doesnt cost money and i love to do. it feels good to bike. Food takes all my money -___-.

facebook/tumblr:     i havent been on as much as i was before because of work and like i said before i get to lazy to get on after work so i want my rest. thats good though because i always get on alot. yay me for not going on alot.

friends:         i been hanging out with my aldrich he is more like family then a friend. but i havent hang out with friends as much its whatever i dont really care. i pretty much dont like hanging out with friends as much anymore. i just dont get my self sometimes. i just like hanging out one on one. or two people or 3-4 max. its just me. sometimes its okay it feels good hanging out with a group sometimes. sometimes i miss my friends sometimes i really dont. just to be honest -__-.

crush:          ok i got nothing to hide ;) well i let the who ever is reading this know who is my crush, haha cause i havent talk to anyone about it just 1 person. im just letting people know now because i already told her and guess who it is? haha... its someone i went to highschool with and we never rarely talk! its jorelle. hm some may notice if you know me well, some may not. but i already told her i how i felt and this and that. shes cool with it. mmm i love our conversations. anyways thats it for now.

family:          i been having problem with my mom, well not me giving her problem shes giving me the problems! im so annoyed its started on monday! but not its wahtevers its her birthday tomorrow. i know ill forgive her its just what she says gets to me sometimes. things she says hurt me sometimes. -___-. the rest sister brothers are good! my brother is back from riverside! i missed him! i havent seen him and i miss smoking and being goofy with him! Love my little brother!