i am back, i haven't been blogging! i been sick for like 3 days! i was dying! :( i hate being sick! especially how i love the cold so much! i want to enjoy the cold but since i was sick i been in bed with layers or clothes and sleeping all day. ugh it was the worst feeling ever. i hate getting sick. i had a high fever. i've gotten sick on friday! black friday and that night i slept with a small blanket and it was sooooo cold cause i was over my friend house. i forgot to wear a hoodie, even worst :( i felt like crap the whole day, i had a sick headache! ugh.
saturday i had to babysit i couldnt even do it, i had drive and pick up this and that, help my mom, take my brother to get his hair cut, pick up the kids. after everything was done i knocked the shit out till the next day.
sunday is my usual cleaning day, i slept the whole day! woke up to pee, went back to sleep! threw up, went back to sleep! around 10ish, tai and anna came to my house and woke me up to go get tea! they fucking would! haha i was so tired i was like wtf are you guys doing here! but they made me go! i had to take my sister to work at 5am. mm
monday i didnt wake up at 5am cause i was tired and i told her, fuck it, just take the car and go! rested some more, sleep shit pee sleep! i wasnt feeling good it felt like i was getting worse! i slept till 8pm and i got up and couldnt even sleep no more, i felt like i been sleeping my days away! depressing! -__-
tuesday woke up feeling pretty good, i actrually woke up at 6am super early went to the restroom pee and looked in the mirror and smiled. i think im getting better :) Woohoo. i feel stronger and since i missed my sunday cleaning session, i thought i start my day off by cleaning my room and doing laundry! i am officially done :) i feel great, still have a stuffy nose. im still sick, but its gotten better
by the way sorry bout the texts, calls, voicemails, i havent return any of them.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
all the t.v shows i watch are done!
fuck, all my t.v shows i watch is all done! season is over :(
weeds - it ended like "what the fuck?" wow so stupid!
big c - ended really well, i loved it, it was sad, plus it makes me want more! i cried :(
bad girls club - theres still the reunion its okay i guess, i watch it cause its pretty funny
lip service- my UK L WORD, fuck i love thier accents so sexy, ended good, keep me wanting more! season 2 please :)
its sad thats its all over, boo. dont you get a sad? i dont know why that always happens to me, especially with the L Word that got me reallllllly depress, its crazy. i get really depress after i watched season 1-6 of the L Word. I had a talk with another fan of the l word and she gets like that as well, its crazy its cool cause she understands. People might just think im crazy. so i anit tripping i guess ill dream for now? or wish?
i wanna buy:
Big C Season 1.
The Real L Word Season 1.
Lip Service Season 1.
United States of Tara Season 2.
well there's new shows coming out, im ready! i love showtime! :)
shameless
californication
episodes
weeds - it ended like "what the fuck?" wow so stupid!
big c - ended really well, i loved it, it was sad, plus it makes me want more! i cried :(
bad girls club - theres still the reunion its okay i guess, i watch it cause its pretty funny
lip service- my UK L WORD, fuck i love thier accents so sexy, ended good, keep me wanting more! season 2 please :)
its sad thats its all over, boo. dont you get a sad? i dont know why that always happens to me, especially with the L Word that got me reallllllly depress, its crazy. i get really depress after i watched season 1-6 of the L Word. I had a talk with another fan of the l word and she gets like that as well, its crazy its cool cause she understands. People might just think im crazy. so i anit tripping i guess ill dream for now? or wish?
i wanna buy:
Big C Season 1.
The Real L Word Season 1.
Lip Service Season 1.
United States of Tara Season 2.
well there's new shows coming out, im ready! i love showtime! :)
shameless
californication
episodes
knuckles are bleeding
that felt good, i just put up the punching bag and shit it feels good to hit that thaaaang.
i need some gloves.
last time i use 4 dollars to buy 2 cook book. damn i regret that!
that was random but yeah.
i need some gloves.
last time i use 4 dollars to buy 2 cook book. damn i regret that!
that was random but yeah.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
it all comes out.
im not angry at all.
today in the morning i was sleeping so well, until i heard my mom talking to my uncle. always talks so loud it wakes me up and gets me a little bit annoyed. i was going to tell her to shh.. but instead the subject she was talking about was my dad, so i just laid their pretend i was sleeping.she always talk about him, like always. woman love to start problems, they love attention, they love making people do it their way,when they cant have it their way they start a problem. they love to argue. she kept running her mouth about oh how she hates my dad, how she isn't going to do his laundry, how she is moving, how she doesn't even eat his food, how she will go on her own and leave all of us. currently its only like me my sister uncle and my mom and dad. she was telling my uncle how my dad always say "if i die, you guys will die to. you guys wont survive with out me." who says that right? i don't think that's true, cause i know my mom support us, she is the one who pays for all the bills when my dad takes the money to gamble and talking about gamble he is so addicted to it, when he gets his check all the money goes to gambling&beer. she was talking about how he doesn't even care about us as much. he gets out of control when he drinks and that's like most of the time. how he always buy cars that he like and never think about what do we like. how he treat other people outside of our family better then us. she was talking about how if she left she knows that the person who would care for him most would be my step-sister kym. its true, i don't care as him as much cause what he does. i just know for a fact that its only going to be my step-sister kym and i who would care for him. she said "i care for pat most in the house, i love her more then my kids. she never met her mom, her dad doesn't even show her that he cares for her or love her." right when she said that i started tearing up. i pretend i didn't hear that or let them know i was awake. she was saying that my dad don't think i love him when she knows i really love and care for him. she was saying how he never talks to me at all, like about school or do i feel happy. she asked him one day "why you never ask your daughter does she feel happy about school or how is she? you never talk to her." he never answered her. that made me cry even more, i think i would feel a bit good if he asked me if i was happy and wanting to know how i feel. we don't even talk no more. she brought up how i stop going school cause i was unhappy and how i dont have money. she gives me money for taking my sister to work not as much only like 40 dollars a month but i save it up. my dad gives me money sometimes when he gets his check. i save. i try saving. she was talking about how he yells at me for buying used shoes. how he doesnt see that im buying "USED" shoes cause i dont have money for new stuff. there was so much more. i just stayed in bed for awhile tearing cause i didnt want her to know i heard everything.
i was tearing up typing this up as well, now my nose is stuffy.
today in the morning i was sleeping so well, until i heard my mom talking to my uncle. always talks so loud it wakes me up and gets me a little bit annoyed. i was going to tell her to shh.. but instead the subject she was talking about was my dad, so i just laid their pretend i was sleeping.she always talk about him, like always. woman love to start problems, they love attention, they love making people do it their way,when they cant have it their way they start a problem. they love to argue. she kept running her mouth about oh how she hates my dad, how she isn't going to do his laundry, how she is moving, how she doesn't even eat his food, how she will go on her own and leave all of us. currently its only like me my sister uncle and my mom and dad. she was telling my uncle how my dad always say "if i die, you guys will die to. you guys wont survive with out me." who says that right? i don't think that's true, cause i know my mom support us, she is the one who pays for all the bills when my dad takes the money to gamble and talking about gamble he is so addicted to it, when he gets his check all the money goes to gambling&beer. she was talking about how he doesn't even care about us as much. he gets out of control when he drinks and that's like most of the time. how he always buy cars that he like and never think about what do we like. how he treat other people outside of our family better then us. she was talking about how if she left she knows that the person who would care for him most would be my step-sister kym. its true, i don't care as him as much cause what he does. i just know for a fact that its only going to be my step-sister kym and i who would care for him. she said "i care for pat most in the house, i love her more then my kids. she never met her mom, her dad doesn't even show her that he cares for her or love her." right when she said that i started tearing up. i pretend i didn't hear that or let them know i was awake. she was saying that my dad don't think i love him when she knows i really love and care for him. she was saying how he never talks to me at all, like about school or do i feel happy. she asked him one day "why you never ask your daughter does she feel happy about school or how is she? you never talk to her." he never answered her. that made me cry even more, i think i would feel a bit good if he asked me if i was happy and wanting to know how i feel. we don't even talk no more. she brought up how i stop going school cause i was unhappy and how i dont have money. she gives me money for taking my sister to work not as much only like 40 dollars a month but i save it up. my dad gives me money sometimes when he gets his check. i save. i try saving. she was talking about how he yells at me for buying used shoes. how he doesnt see that im buying "USED" shoes cause i dont have money for new stuff. there was so much more. i just stayed in bed for awhile tearing cause i didnt want her to know i heard everything.
i was tearing up typing this up as well, now my nose is stuffy.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Nary Tang
like i said on my other blog, i didnt feel like cramping everything up in one blog, so ill just blog whenever i feel like blogging about a certain person.
Nary Tang. what can i say? i have to admit she is my best-friend i can say. We were closer before when she lives in Los Angeles but i guess when you start college and you have your own stuff to do, it just kinda changes? to me i treat her as the same as before even though it seems like we rarely talk, but when we get a chance to we catch up, its not arkward at all. shes more like a sister to me im really comfortable with her and her family. she knows ill be there for her when i can. we make fun of each other so much that we are use to it, we dont even take it serious. some people takes it up the ass . i feel that we have this wierd kinda friendship. we never really got mad at each other, well we have had some problems before but we always intend to say sorry to each other. we never like to admit to each other or even to other people that we care for each other, but inside we do. we always make fun of each other like EVERYTIME we hang out. we been through alot i can say, its nice knowing that she will be there for me. we text each other about random stuff daily. just random stuff. if theres something going on, pictures, etc. i love getting high with her, because gosh its so hilarious! im glad that i met her she knows that ill be there for her when i can. shes someone i pretty much tell everything too. she knows alot about me. i dont think i like hiding stuff from her -___-.
"Merry Christmas!..Surprise? you know even if we dont talk.. ill always get you a gift. :D well where should i begin? hmm well thanks for everything. seriously i know i dont show it but i really appreciate it . ha, i think you're one of the many few people who can deal with my stupid mood swings. how long has it been already? enjoy this collage and take care of it i know that even if things are really bad right now.. just to let you know i would forget about all the good times we shared. you piss me off. i piss you off ..but it works out! Tough Love! sorry if im not there for you as much as you are there for me but..im there to listen, or at least try to. this is pretty cheesy but whatever! oh man look at all the pictures though. fromt he first picture we took together, to my ugly bands, from hanging at each other houses and so much more!! things may not be the same as before.. but its ok. through thick and thin right? i may give you alot of wierd looks but dont take them serious. thats how things work between us. remember the day i was crying non stop. well yeah.. its cause i thought i let you down.. and it scared me. i really dont want to lose you as a fried.. your just one of those really good friends. You may ask me later on if i care about you.. and chancesare i wont say anything. rofl, but shut up you KNOW i do. I miss hanging out with you and jenny. i wish we had more days together :( i have to admit we have alot of ups and downs but we always get through it. screw what every says! if im mean.. im mean. its not like i mean it. you know i love you! even if i have this wierd way of showing it. Thanks for everything Jennifer Nguyen" -Nary
i remember when i read this it made me cry, everytime i read it, it makes me tear up. i always know that were great friends and no matter what happens were still going to be friend. also i have a feeling were going to be good friends for a long time!
by the way she has nutella in her mouth. lmao
Nary Tang. what can i say? i have to admit she is my best-friend i can say. We were closer before when she lives in Los Angeles but i guess when you start college and you have your own stuff to do, it just kinda changes? to me i treat her as the same as before even though it seems like we rarely talk, but when we get a chance to we catch up, its not arkward at all. shes more like a sister to me im really comfortable with her and her family. she knows ill be there for her when i can. we make fun of each other so much that we are use to it, we dont even take it serious. some people takes it up the ass . i feel that we have this wierd kinda friendship. we never really got mad at each other, well we have had some problems before but we always intend to say sorry to each other. we never like to admit to each other or even to other people that we care for each other, but inside we do. we always make fun of each other like EVERYTIME we hang out. we been through alot i can say, its nice knowing that she will be there for me. we text each other about random stuff daily. just random stuff. if theres something going on, pictures, etc. i love getting high with her, because gosh its so hilarious! im glad that i met her she knows that ill be there for her when i can. shes someone i pretty much tell everything too. she knows alot about me. i dont think i like hiding stuff from her -___-.
"Merry Christmas!..Surprise? you know even if we dont talk.. ill always get you a gift. :D well where should i begin? hmm well thanks for everything. seriously i know i dont show it but i really appreciate it . ha, i think you're one of the many few people who can deal with my stupid mood swings. how long has it been already? enjoy this collage and take care of it i know that even if things are really bad right now.. just to let you know i would forget about all the good times we shared. you piss me off. i piss you off ..but it works out! Tough Love! sorry if im not there for you as much as you are there for me but..im there to listen, or at least try to. this is pretty cheesy but whatever! oh man look at all the pictures though. fromt he first picture we took together, to my ugly bands, from hanging at each other houses and so much more!! things may not be the same as before.. but its ok. through thick and thin right? i may give you alot of wierd looks but dont take them serious. thats how things work between us. remember the day i was crying non stop. well yeah.. its cause i thought i let you down.. and it scared me. i really dont want to lose you as a fried.. your just one of those really good friends. You may ask me later on if i care about you.. and chancesare i wont say anything. rofl, but shut up you KNOW i do. I miss hanging out with you and jenny. i wish we had more days together :( i have to admit we have alot of ups and downs but we always get through it. screw what every says! if im mean.. im mean. its not like i mean it. you know i love you! even if i have this wierd way of showing it. Thanks for everything Jennifer Nguyen" -Nary
i remember when i read this it made me cry, everytime i read it, it makes me tear up. i always know that were great friends and no matter what happens were still going to be friend. also i have a feeling were going to be good friends for a long time!
Monday, November 15, 2010
to my lovly friends.
i met so much great people, i love each and all of you. even the haters.
sometimes i get annoyed, sometimes you guys make me mad, sometimes i fuck up. we still friends!
Theres alot of people i would like to write about but i dont want to write about each and all of you guys in the same blog so i will write some names down and ill write some nice and maybe ugly things about you guys. im just being honest. i wont hurt your feelings though, i hope not. :) jk
theres a few. just tune in daily and you will see whos up on the board ;)
sometimes i get annoyed, sometimes you guys make me mad, sometimes i fuck up. we still friends!
Theres alot of people i would like to write about but i dont want to write about each and all of you guys in the same blog so i will write some names down and ill write some nice and maybe ugly things about you guys. im just being honest. i wont hurt your feelings though, i hope not. :) jk
theres a few. just tune in daily and you will see whos up on the board ;)
trends/hypocrite.
last night i hung out with margee, damn how i miss her oh so much i havent talk to her or seen her! since shes goes school at northridge and when she comes back shes doing her own thing. finally we did the stuff we usual do! BIKE! i miss her :) i finally got to see her tattoo!! awesome!
we road around got free samples of yogurt cause when i was going to get my yogurt i forgot i didnt had money :( how fucking sad is that, hahahaha! we had to get samples and then we just left. #cheapbitch.
so we were catching up like usual, what i like is that we dont make it arkward when we havent seen each other for awhile. oh well to continue the subject "trends" "hyprocrite" came up. i thought about it, like some people go way off line with the trend thing, you probably would say you dont follow up with the trend or what so ever but hey i admit it that i "copy" or whatever you call it. i mean whats new is kinda whats good right? i dont get how some people its hard to admit that, or some people would say im a "trendsetta" Not referring to me but saying they started a trend or bringing back whats good and shit, but im sure theirs people out there you look up to or what so ever. another shit that came up was hyprocrite, i think im a hypocrite, not in a bad bad bad way. its not bad or whatever i think people just gotta admit it sometimes, its not bad really..gotta accept the fact. just be yourself its okay fuck what other think.
pointless blog.
we road around got free samples of yogurt cause when i was going to get my yogurt i forgot i didnt had money :( how fucking sad is that, hahahaha! we had to get samples and then we just left. #cheapbitch.
so we were catching up like usual, what i like is that we dont make it arkward when we havent seen each other for awhile. oh well to continue the subject "trends" "hyprocrite" came up. i thought about it, like some people go way off line with the trend thing, you probably would say you dont follow up with the trend or what so ever but hey i admit it that i "copy" or whatever you call it. i mean whats new is kinda whats good right? i dont get how some people its hard to admit that, or some people would say im a "trendsetta" Not referring to me but saying they started a trend or bringing back whats good and shit, but im sure theirs people out there you look up to or what so ever. another shit that came up was hyprocrite, i think im a hypocrite, not in a bad bad bad way. its not bad or whatever i think people just gotta admit it sometimes, its not bad really..gotta accept the fact. just be yourself its okay fuck what other think.
pointless blog.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
its been a long time.
i hung out with friends. i dont even really wanna hang out with anyone. that sounds mean. its like im pushing people away its like i dont even wanna do anything anymore. im such a dick. i only hang out with nary i enjoy hanging out with nary, shes one of my close friends that i only hang out with and talk to daily? when theres something we text each other or blah blah. i dont really keep in touch with any one as much, but sometimes when my mood switch i end up writing on people walls (facebook) just to see how they are. i dont really enjoy going out as much no more, i rather hang out with one person. i been hanging out with tai. shes my wingman, we need to go meet the ladies! :) i wanna meet new people, more gay people. im excited for san francisco. we got shit down. one day. what sucks im not even 21 to go gay bars with tai and her friends =/. its okay. back to what i was saying, i hate making plans and going out alot. i feel boring now. i hate it but i like it? if you tell me plans like a week ahead i wont bring it up, ill just say i forgot or something. i hate that about me. i guess.. i dont enjoy hanging out with people as much no more, or depends who you are? i get annoyed. i usualy make excuses if i dont want to hang out, i have to admit that. hahahaa... fuck it i guess.
"pushing them away......far far away."
xxo.pat
"pushing them away......far far away."
xxo.pat
relationships
Sometimes I get you, Sometimes I don’t understand.
Sometimes I love you, Sometimes it's you I can't stand.
Sometimes I wanna hug you, Sometimes I wanna push you away.
Most times I wanna kiss you, Other times put you and every minute you start switching up
And you say things like, ‘ You don't give a fuck!'
Then I say, ‘I'm through with you.' Take my heart from you. And you come running after me, and, baby, I'm back with you. - Rihanna.
i know people argue. i know its normal. i understand that. whats not normal is arguing all the fucking time and you make up or you argue about little bullshit then you cry then you make up then you break up then u make up then u argue again then u make up.-__- like breaking up 15 times a month!. i know i havent been in a relationship i might be like that but im just saying. hopefully not. i guess my head was wondering last night. theres so much about relationships. i know when my friends talk to me about their girlfriend/boyfriends like if they argue or something i know ill be on their side, but you gotta understand if you keep coming to the same person and telling me the same exact shit i dont know what the hell to tell you. i know your hurting and you just need someone to be there, but when you keep on telling me the same shit and i already told you some advice or try giving you advice in the beginning try it? i dont know. dont run to me and tell me the same stuff over and over cause my head is going to explode and im just going to shut my mouth and like listen. thats all i can do, listen to you. ill have a shoulder for you. i also notice its mostly girls. guys are so strong or they dont show their weakness. most guys i guess. why cant girls do that? try and not give a fuck so they can run back to you.
i dislike how some people who become in a relationship you get all close and you disappear on your friends. -____-. i guess thats how it is in the beginning? you just want to spend more time with your boyfriend/girlfriend? i dont know. its just i see that alot. also. "friends or boyfriend?" who do you choose? i wouldnt know. some people push their friends so far away and dont understand why its not the same anymore. ask your self. try to keep in touch at least. have time for your friends and significant other and family of course. once someone fucks up on you, you know who you have in the end. just know*.
i adore my friend lucy, shes great. what i like is she spends time with her friends and also have time for her boyfriend. i notice she doesnt really talk about her problems as much only if she needed someone really bad. i love that about her, even sometime if she is hurting inside, she stays strong outside. i love that.
this is just my point of view. its my opinion i dont care if you think im wrong or right.
sometimes i feel like i push my friends awya
"i dont break up with him no more, i know were going to get back together n-eways its a routine." -linaN
Sometimes I love you, Sometimes it's you I can't stand.
Sometimes I wanna hug you, Sometimes I wanna push you away.
Most times I wanna kiss you, Other times put you and every minute you start switching up
And you say things like, ‘ You don't give a fuck!'
Then I say, ‘I'm through with you.' Take my heart from you. And you come running after me, and, baby, I'm back with you. - Rihanna.
i know people argue. i know its normal. i understand that. whats not normal is arguing all the fucking time and you make up or you argue about little bullshit then you cry then you make up then you break up then u make up then u argue again then u make up.-__- like breaking up 15 times a month!. i know i havent been in a relationship i might be like that but im just saying. hopefully not. i guess my head was wondering last night. theres so much about relationships. i know when my friends talk to me about their girlfriend/boyfriends like if they argue or something i know ill be on their side, but you gotta understand if you keep coming to the same person and telling me the same exact shit i dont know what the hell to tell you. i know your hurting and you just need someone to be there, but when you keep on telling me the same shit and i already told you some advice or try giving you advice in the beginning try it? i dont know. dont run to me and tell me the same stuff over and over cause my head is going to explode and im just going to shut my mouth and like listen. thats all i can do, listen to you. ill have a shoulder for you. i also notice its mostly girls. guys are so strong or they dont show their weakness. most guys i guess. why cant girls do that? try and not give a fuck so they can run back to you.
i dislike how some people who become in a relationship you get all close and you disappear on your friends. -____-. i guess thats how it is in the beginning? you just want to spend more time with your boyfriend/girlfriend? i dont know. its just i see that alot. also. "friends or boyfriend?" who do you choose? i wouldnt know. some people push their friends so far away and dont understand why its not the same anymore. ask your self. try to keep in touch at least. have time for your friends and significant other and family of course. once someone fucks up on you, you know who you have in the end. just know*.
i adore my friend lucy, shes great. what i like is she spends time with her friends and also have time for her boyfriend. i notice she doesnt really talk about her problems as much only if she needed someone really bad. i love that about her, even sometime if she is hurting inside, she stays strong outside. i love that.
this is just my point of view. its my opinion i dont care if you think im wrong or right.
sometimes i feel like i push my friends awya
"i dont break up with him no more, i know were going to get back together n-eways its a routine." -linaN
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Adventure day2.
Fun Fun Fun. woke up bored wanted to get up and do something, Tai end up hitting me up went to Point Dume down in Malibu then Santa Monica and guess what? Taio Cruz was going to Perform and we got to see him perform im not a big fan, but free? who doesnt love free stuff? plus it was fun! :) here are some pictures.
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Up at the moutains! Great View. So relaxing.
Going down the deeeeeep asss stairs!!!! tides were High!
great ass view!
Taio Cruz. hahahaha i didnt even take alot of pictures i was busy looking for the cute ass girl behind the crowd.
ok theres like 230+more pictures. to lazy.
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Up at the moutains! Great View. So relaxing.
ok theres like 230+more pictures. to lazy.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
@Margaret Nguyen. aka MARG.
i just read your tumblr post about the bestfriend. i dont know will you ever read this but .. thats nice that you consider me as a bestfriend, and i cant believe you dont think i consider you as a bestfriend, like i always say i know i dont consider much people as my bestfriends and all, but im sure i can tell you your one of my closest friend and you know ill always be there for you and i promise that. we weren't close back then but we gotten close some how i really dont know, but at least we did. i love everything about you i like how you call me up randomly just cause you wanna "walk." i like how we bike and ask each other "where do we go?" i like how your so nice to everyone. i like your style/features. i like how i can call you up to go to the movies or go to an art show with me. i like that your open minded about things, i like how when i introduce you to my friends you talk to them and not make it arkward and thats why i love introducing you to my friends. i like how you always invite me to places even though i never go, cause i sleep early. even though i say no you care to ask. just to let you know i care about you and your someone i dont wanna loose. we have good memories and well make more memories. remember when we got high and walked around chinatown in the rain and you tried to jump over the puddle but you jump RIGHT into the puddle? lmfao! remember when i fell off nary stairs and fliped over like 3 times -__-. remember when we hold hands biking? remember our sex talks at alpine? hahahaha! good memories, theres so much more.
just gotta let you know i care for you and your one of my close friends. i tell you everything. i feel comfortable around you and i NEVER feel comfortable around much people. your a great friend. i appreciate you :)
'
xxxo.pat.
Thift Shopping.
today was whatever' was bored outa my mind and i wanted to get myself something just for the fuck of it. got up wore some shorts went to st.Vincents guess what i found ? i got me a pair of toms for 5bucks:) my size. yeee boy got lucky with that. i was mostly looking for some t-shirts. i need some more. blah i wanna shop but im trying to save money at the same time, i dont know how that is going to work. maybe i can spend 10 dollars a week. sounds good.
xxxo. pat.
xxxo. pat.
Monday, November 8, 2010
ELLEN DEGENERES
guess what ?? i got a call today in the morning and i got tickets for ellen! :)
i have to wait for some packet so i can sign. After that call i was extremely happy :) WOO!
i cant wait to see whos gonna be the quest. also im kinda shy, i wonder if she randomly chooses people to go up and play games. ahhh , but im excited!!!
i have to wait for some packet so i can sign. After that call i was extremely happy :) WOO!
i cant wait to see whos gonna be the quest. also im kinda shy, i wonder if she randomly chooses people to go up and play games. ahhh , but im excited!!!
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Crushin'
so i have a crush on this cute girl her name is luii :) its just a crush. a internet crush. haha how lame am i ?. i added her on facebook cause i notice tragik takes alot of photos of her and man shes really cute. its cool cause she talks to me and i feel that i cant keep a conversation going :( , but whats cool she talks back. right? cause some famous people who thinks they all that never talks back, shes not famous famous but you know?. n-e ways i just wanted to blog and say im crushin'!
she is skinny, small boobs, light skinn.tatoos,piercings.ahhhh
i even told her to twitpic some more & she agreed :) im on her good side. oh im crazy.
Yikes. So sexy. Luiibadass. :)
she is skinny, small boobs, light skinn.tatoos,piercings.ahhhh
i even told her to twitpic some more & she agreed :) im on her good side. oh im crazy.
Yikes. So sexy. Luiibadass. :)
Friday, November 5, 2010
not addicted
i dont think im addicted to weed.. am i ?
cause i wanna get high!
my brother and his friend ray asked me to smoke, i stop a minute and thought about it, then i said nah!
i wanted to smoke though, fuck. ;(
even if i break this promise its all me, not anyone's. im just proving my self till dec.1.
i dont know how will this go,cause lately i been wanting to get high asfuck!
cause i wanna get high!
my brother and his friend ray asked me to smoke, i stop a minute and thought about it, then i said nah!
i wanted to smoke though, fuck. ;(
even if i break this promise its all me, not anyone's. im just proving my self till dec.1.
i dont know how will this go,cause lately i been wanting to get high asfuck!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
just update?
uh this week is passing by quick. i remember when i wanted halloween to be over already and fuck its like bam thursday already. why the fuck is it going so fast?? i know time wont stop,but slow the fuck down please. :(. i been hanging out with my brother aldrich and we caught up and hung out like the good old times. today i saw dianna and her baby daddy brad and jacob (her son) he is adorable! cute! they are doing very well, im happy to see them happy. oh yeah why the fuck has this week been so fucking hot.? like really hot. ugh i hate this heat, i been filling the tub and laying there blah. i talked to thalia last night i say goodnight to her and she starts a conversations. man little things makes me happy, i was smiling the whole time we were texting. its funny why am i always so attracted to the damn straight girls.? its a challenge though i like it. i think its cute when she flirts back. we were flirting and being all corny. she said she miss me alot. :) all of sudden this morning meli texted me saying "goodmorning <3" i didnt bother to text back. why? cause i dont wanna give her to much attention, thats my secret. haha i dont wanna throw my self at her and shit, i know she's a keeper. i wouldnt want to fuck around and hurt her feelings and shit, ill take her serious. i just felt like ignoring her text. but that made me smile though, like the most simplest things can make you feel really good :). start off my day. oh yeah this week my dad pissed me off he drank so much, fuck i painted my face black for fun and all of sudden HE tells me to go cvs to buy beer with my mom, i told him no i got facepaint all over he said GO NOW. -_- i had to go with my face all black i stayed in the car but fuck cvs is always so pack at night and shit 2 cars beside me saw me and like i tried to take a napkin to cover my face but fuck it was ugh. embarrassing lol. then after he went to sleep around 12:30ish he woke up and said go buy me food. and i was like bout to fall asleep, then i was like ugh fuck it ill just go get him food so my mom and i went to jacks got him a burger then came home and he said "i wanted burger king" and he fucking threw the burger and started bitching at everyone. WTF? seriously has problems its so annoying, he is crazy. n-e ways its hot , i hate the heat.
i notice i jump back and forth. subject to subject...my grammer isnt so great too. hahahaha
i notice i jump back and forth. subject to subject...my grammer isnt so great too. hahahaha
Monday, November 1, 2010
Advice Poster.
"believe in your fucking self. stay up all fucking night. work outside of your fucking habits. know when to fucking speak up. fucking collaborate. dont fucking procrastinate. get over your fucking self. keep fucking learning. form follows fucking functions. a computer is a Lite-Brite for bad fucking ideas. find fucking inspiration everywhere. fucking networks. educate your fucking client. trust your fucking gut. ask for fucking help.make it fucking sustainable. questions fucking everything. have a fucking concept. learn to take some fucking criticism.make me fucking care. use fucking spell check. do your fucking research. sketch more fucking ideas. the problem contains the fucking solution. think about all the fucking possibilities."
Shady Fucked up People.
so recently my sister went to a party at westCo. called mom around 3ish in the morning and guess what? someone stole her car. what the fuck!? Right? who the fuck would steal a fucking car.? well its a twisted ass story. So this is the story.
Her friend misplace her keys and someone asked "is your car even outside" and when she went to check it was gone. what the fuck!!!! i would go fucking crazy. well to go on she said its someone from the party forsure cause the keys was misplace in the house. -_-. i asked her isnt it your friend party? and yes it was her friend party but there was alot of random other people well mostly the girl sister friends as well. it sucks cause when you think about it, you never know who took the damn car. it can be someone you know someone your close to someone she knows of course. So she called the police and made a report and called the bank to hold her card and they said someone used her card to fill up the gastank.! damn what a trip. Guess what??? the car was at the same place in the morning! the person who took it for a joyride took her purse shit in her truck and wallet and money and gps. who the fuck would do that? thats so messed up. they took her social and all of that shit. another fucked up shit was she asked her friend "can you ask the people you invited did they find any keys or see a civic." all her friend said was "i dont think they will say anything." wow, at least try and help out -_-. damn people these days. I guess karma is gonna get back at that person.
kinda funny how her car was gone and in the morning police called and said its at the street the party was. damn people these days.
Her friend misplace her keys and someone asked "is your car even outside" and when she went to check it was gone. what the fuck!!!! i would go fucking crazy. well to go on she said its someone from the party forsure cause the keys was misplace in the house. -_-. i asked her isnt it your friend party? and yes it was her friend party but there was alot of random other people well mostly the girl sister friends as well. it sucks cause when you think about it, you never know who took the damn car. it can be someone you know someone your close to someone she knows of course. So she called the police and made a report and called the bank to hold her card and they said someone used her card to fill up the gastank.! damn what a trip. Guess what??? the car was at the same place in the morning! the person who took it for a joyride took her purse shit in her truck and wallet and money and gps. who the fuck would do that? thats so messed up. they took her social and all of that shit. another fucked up shit was she asked her friend "can you ask the people you invited did they find any keys or see a civic." all her friend said was "i dont think they will say anything." wow, at least try and help out -_-. damn people these days. I guess karma is gonna get back at that person.
kinda funny how her car was gone and in the morning police called and said its at the street the party was. damn people these days.
halloweeeeeeen.
Halloween weekend. friday&saturday i just stayed home, i dont have that Halloween Sprit this year. i didnt care about the costume and dressing up got invited to house party at north-ridge but i end up not going cause i didnt want to dress up. saturday i just baby-sit and stayed home all day.
Actual Halloween day woke up pretty late and felt really tired, cindy wanted to come over so she came over and then drove to lincoln heights to get some dinos, met up aldrich at alpine. introduced them. 30 mins later nary and sydney picked me up at alpine drop cindy off head to nary house and ended up going to Hollywood. i called aldrich to come with us cause i thought ill feel wierd with nary "p-sis" so we he came and met up at nary's. Waited for her friends then heading all the way down sunset all the way to Hollywood. it was so packed, parking was crazy, parking lots were 20 a night. There was a event at "West-Hollywood." WeHo! streets were closed ended up going to Beverly Hills failed, parking you needed permit, but we they trick or treated like 3 houses! lmao. Then we decided to go to San Marino but at a intersection i saw KEVIN LIU ! hahahaha why am i always seeing that cutie around! he had his underwear and angel wings! So cute, he ran to the car and gave me a hug then he ran back i saw kevin Nary boyfriend! Lmao so funny both of their names are "kevin" then decided ok well stay here and hang out at WeHO. parked at beverly center and walked to WeHo. man that was a crazy long ass walk but so worth it, i got a big bruise on my leg cause i hit this water hydrant thing cause i was looking at some indian girl ;). caught my eyes! the bruise is nasty i got a lump! :(. Finally got to the Main Street. It was SOOOO PACKED. so much nice costumes and man i should of dressed up :( . It was nice, so much gay's i love it. Oh yeah IT WAS HILARIOUS while we were walking a BIG girl grabbed aldrich and pulled him cause she wanted to take a picture with him and her friend and he goes " I DONT SWING THAT WAY" he thought it was a guy for a minute cause she was kinda big. it was hilarious! HE literally PANIC! but then when she said i wanted a picture we all started laughing hahahaha! It was a mission to get back cause it was so packed . i Decided to leave with aldrich at 9:30 cause he had work at 10! plus he works in pasedena... lmao we had to run back such a work out! got to the car... guess what we dont even know the way back -__- ended up going the damn wrong way! and it was already 10!!! then we found the way back to heaven house! my house. then bam thats it . i wished i stayed longer but i had fun while i was there.
p.s tragik & luii was there i really wanted to see them.
Actual Halloween day woke up pretty late and felt really tired, cindy wanted to come over so she came over and then drove to lincoln heights to get some dinos, met up aldrich at alpine. introduced them. 30 mins later nary and sydney picked me up at alpine drop cindy off head to nary house and ended up going to Hollywood. i called aldrich to come with us cause i thought ill feel wierd with nary "p-sis" so we he came and met up at nary's. Waited for her friends then heading all the way down sunset all the way to Hollywood. it was so packed, parking was crazy, parking lots were 20 a night. There was a event at "West-Hollywood." WeHo! streets were closed ended up going to Beverly Hills failed, parking you needed permit, but we they trick or treated like 3 houses! lmao. Then we decided to go to San Marino but at a intersection i saw KEVIN LIU ! hahahaha why am i always seeing that cutie around! he had his underwear and angel wings! So cute, he ran to the car and gave me a hug then he ran back i saw kevin Nary boyfriend! Lmao so funny both of their names are "kevin" then decided ok well stay here and hang out at WeHO. parked at beverly center and walked to WeHo. man that was a crazy long ass walk but so worth it, i got a big bruise on my leg cause i hit this water hydrant thing cause i was looking at some indian girl ;). caught my eyes! the bruise is nasty i got a lump! :(. Finally got to the Main Street. It was SOOOO PACKED. so much nice costumes and man i should of dressed up :( . It was nice, so much gay's i love it. Oh yeah IT WAS HILARIOUS while we were walking a BIG girl grabbed aldrich and pulled him cause she wanted to take a picture with him and her friend and he goes " I DONT SWING THAT WAY" he thought it was a guy for a minute cause she was kinda big. it was hilarious! HE literally PANIC! but then when she said i wanted a picture we all started laughing hahahaha! It was a mission to get back cause it was so packed . i Decided to leave with aldrich at 9:30 cause he had work at 10! plus he works in pasedena... lmao we had to run back such a work out! got to the car... guess what we dont even know the way back -__- ended up going the damn wrong way! and it was already 10!!! then we found the way back to heaven house! my house. then bam thats it . i wished i stayed longer but i had fun while i was there.
p.s tragik & luii was there i really wanted to see them.
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