lets update with pat nguyen.

First of all im high, i just smoked with my brother and adewole earlier.

School: i stop going school this semester. i thought about it the first week when we were coming back. im not happy at school, i know no one is not happy or hate school and its not for them. I hate it so  much i dont even enjoy being there. i really dont, i guess cause i dont try. it doesnt interest me. i feel like a homeless living at home, i feel that i wont get no where. i always think about fuck what am i going to do when i get older, i dont even know. i wanna be a photographer/artist. i know i need to go school but fuck why do i need school. I mean i do need it to get somewhere. Right now im just waiting till i get that shit through my head, cause honestly right now all i wanna do is have fun and fuck it you know. im fucking up though. i need a job.

Money: money is something i use everyday. i need a job so badly i know i keep on saying this and it seems like i dont try at all. Fuck i need to get my shit together i always tell myself that but it never fucking hits me cause i dont care. i act like i dont care but sometimes i do care. Such a bad ass pat.

Life: uhh its alright i guess, everything im doing right now isnt so good, just being a bum living at home not going school nor having a job. i feel like a downer to everyone. i feel like i wont ever get no where. i should believe in myself. i always have to think negative. seriously i need to stop. i need to take my own advice. dont you hate that,? when a friend of yours is having a problem and you can help them out but when your the one with the problem all of sudden you dont listen to your own advice, i guess i just want to hear it from my friends to make my self feel better? i guess.

Girls.? um hey hey last couple days ago a friend of mine was saying "your a player, you play girls. i know you i know your little games." haha that made me laugh, but really hey im not a player i just crush alot ;). okay i dont like the name calling but honestly i love girls, i like talking to girls. Having choices. getting to know everyone and having good conversation is good right'? i dont fall for you, even if i kiss you doesnt mean i like you. its just a kiss. i can say im a flirt. i probably would think that im "thinking im playing you" doesnt that make sence? i really dont know. hmm well theres alot of girls i like, i like alot of girls. i dont intend to hurt people feelings its just i feel scared to be commited since i been single. ? right , its going to be a change. im just not ready for that. but afterall i still have that one person im always going to care for no matter what and i promise whatever happens ill still care and be there for you. you know who you are.

fat: fuck im so fucking fat. seriously. here i go again.... talking about fuck im fat and i eat and i dont give a fuck. blah i need to do something with this fat ! it looks fucking wrong! i got stretch marks and its not attractive. blah i need to go running and watch what the fuck im eating, cuz shoot i eat alot of wingstop! ='/

Future: future.... looks scan through it. i can just say GOALS? hmm i want to finish school. get a good paying job. work for a long time . save up money. get my own car. give parents money and take care of them. have my own place, maybe a little studio it doesnt matter something cheap so i can afford it. Have a nice girlfriend and treat her very good. have a cute doggy. uhhh lose some weight. hmm theres more just cant think right now.

XoXo pat nguyen.