its hard to control feelings.

i cant control how i feel towards someone. its not only that. you cant control how you feel at all. you cant just make your self happy just cause your saying your happy. it doesnt mean your truly happy inside? i dont know if you know what i mean. some people are really good at hiding how they feel. anyways i feel like i try to control my feelings for example not to like a person cause it wont ever happen? the situation with luisa. i learned. back when i was in highschool i didnt care if she was straight,i didnt believe the word. i just enjoy her company and like who she is. it doesnt mean i cant feel attracted to her? hm i dont know. in my world thats how i see it. i dont care if your straight gay bisexual or lesbian your fucking human. um. yeah. i just felt like writing something but sometimes it dont make sense i dont know how to say what im thinking. i think i feel more attracted to jorelle cause we been talking alot. i dont know is it a bad idea.im not doing anything bad or anything . im saying i just like talking to her, she makes me smile :). anyways she wanted me to send her something thru the mail and i tried writing a letter and my mind was BLANK its cause we talk everyday kinda. so i just sent her some stickers and stencils. well everthing is great. to be continue. <2.